Don't Stop the Madness

She tried to kill herself last summer. Then just a couple weeks ago, she was readmitted to the psych ward of a hospital for trying to do it again. She is your stereotypical Asian, piano-playing, intellectual. I would've never tagged her as someone who would try to kill herself. She was released from the hospital last week, but I'm terrified for her. What if her meds don't work?! Death scares me. Of course, her trying to die has everything to do with me and how I feel, because everything has to be about Katie. I don't want to live without her, I don't want to feel guilty, I don't want to know that I could've done something to save her. Sorry. Tangent.
And then, just a couple days ago, a different friend of mine started tweeting weird things, so I asked him if he was alright. "Rough couple of months", he said. We talked for about half an hour longer, and in this time, I heard "My life isn't worth it. I'm done. I'm 17 years old and I'm done living." which terrified me, of course. I know he's had a tough life. But still, doesn't he want a future?! He spilled that he wanted to die within the first five minutes of us talking, and we're not really that good of friends, which makes me wonder how many people actually ask him how he's doing.
Tangent- I hate when people go "How are you doing? Oh I'm good, how are you doing? I'm good too!" Like this question is asked so nonchalantly. It serves no purpose. No one's going to say "How are you doing? Oh, I'm actually thinking about suicide. How are you doing?" Like that will never come up in casual conversation. Which is why I can't stress enough the importance of asking someone how they're really doing. Ok. Tangent's over.
On another side note, there isn't really anything you can say to comfort a suicidal atheist friend. "It'll be okay!" "How do you know?" "Uhh..." Yeah. There are really no good non-Christian "comfort phrases." You know, like "God loves you." "God has a plan." "Just believe in Him, that's all you need." etc. Ok, end of tangent #3.
Anyways, being the selfish person I am, I must admit that all these thoughts about death are scaring the crap outta me. Like, God, whyyyyyy do my friends want to die?! I can't understand it! But then, the other day, I heard this song.
Don't Stop the Madness by Tenth Avenue North
Don't stop the madness,
Don't stop the chaos,
Don't stop the pain surrounding me,
Don't be afraid, Lord, to break my heart,
Just bring me down to my knees.
All I hear is what they're selling me,
That God is love, He isn't suffering,
And "what you need is a little faith and prosperity."

I know God is using the suicidal people around me to show me his love. That may sound crazy, but it's His way to bring me to my knees. I know there's more to God than just His lovey-dovey side. He's showing me that I can't fix everyone, no matter how much I want to. It's not up to me who lives and who dies. I'm scared for my friends; I don't know if they'll end up living or dying.
Partying will not satisfy. Drugs will not satisfy. Sex will not satisfy. Death will not satisfy.
Lord, don't stop the madness, and don't stop the pain surrounding me, if that's what it takes to bring me to my knees. But please, please, please, show my friends that life is worth living.